How To Quit Drugs

Quiting Drugs is tough and it is imposable to do alone. What worked for me was going to 12 step meetings and getting involved. Lots of coffee and phone calls, lots of sex with other addicts (not recommended) and a lot of prayer and letting go.
Praying was hard for me to do and still is. I am the center of my own universe and to believe in a God doesn't work well with my ego. I am like some rich kid showing off, acting all self made, embarrassed at the fact that it's my dads glory, not mine, that made me rich.
With God, he did the miracles and was in the drivers seat for all the good things in my life. I like to take credit but without Gods work, I would be nowhere and have nothing good to show.

I know, coming off drugs and thinkin about living clean and doin right by God feels like your trying to push two magnets together. Its natural to repel and say, I will do it but without God. It's a normal fear. I was afraid I would become some goofball preacher Praising God to everyone and anyone. I would be a square, and so on.
For me, I can say that hasn't happened. I am a believer and a follower and I love my Higher Power but I aint no poster boy for the church. I ain't a f'n saint either, I aint washed clean. I have my issues after all, I am human.

I use to think that Christians thought they where perfect and I would hold them up to the light to find all their imperfections. It was as if by doing so, I would discredit their beliefs and Jesus Christ. How freaking dumb is that. We don't become perfect, we just become works in progress.
For me, recovery and my relationship with God is not freedom from the storm, it is just peace in the midst of the storm. If you want it, God is there for you, you can lean on him.

Meanwhile, getting clean involves some simple work. Go to meetings, lots of meetings and dont use in-between meetings. Don't worry about how you are right now, you are probably a mental and emotional mess. Just keep going to meetings, bring your body and eventually, your mind will follow.

You can do it. It's a simpler then you think. Once you get clean, you can rebuild your life better than before.

The Dopeless Hope Fiend